Persuit of happiness

After long break I felt to write something here. It’s been couple of weeks… there is thought coming to my mind. Am I really happy after all these happened in my life? Yes I am more than happy. I was patient enough to overcome all problems...

Persuit of happiness?
Yeah i agree lovely movie!!But are we all in persuit of the happiness quotient in our life?Do we manage to attain it?People who are in quest of this are never happy! There is always something more.
I was getting fed up in life.Things seem to be going out of control at work and in general.Then I started comparing and expecting something out of my so called professional life.I remember I was thinking...What are my long term dreams??Now, what the crap ?WTF am I doing? Who cares?...I was wondering if our jobs just become means to an end?Is it all about money,name & fame?Is what is expected of us a roadmap to our life?How did this change happen!Does time really make the distance between goals and expectations less and less?I dont know..one fine day I get up and decide enough is enough ,and try and be happy with what I have?(what rubbish).Then how I attain my goals?(If I have any left!)This leaves me in a spinning loop.I am still wondering what the hell happened to change me all from the dreamers with goals to realistic people with no dreams?Is being realistic a path to happiness?possibly no....but then what is?

All of us each day wake up hoping and praying that today will be a better day that yesterday and while we step out of our house in the morning zillions of thoughts cross our minds as to what the day holds for us.The most important thing that we forget each day is that we forget to thank God for letting us see the light of the next day, instead we ask him for things to happen or not happen.........

No money in the world can ever buy you the small things which give immense happiness....So friends, each day let us treasure the small things that will help us live longer rather than run after the things that will shorten our life.... Chinni

Carveying my own destiny!!!

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

Don't be afraid that your life will end...be afraid that it will never begin!!!

I have received this mail from a friend..I simply love the lines written...

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

She let me my heart broken...to see who will fix it.

No one ever asked me about myself and so I never found a reason to explain myself. Many of hardly know anything about me...I have purposely not done know-me kind of things... Now I feel to express it here!!!

On the threshold of my expected engagement and marriage to a soul which I have never known from my intimate. Is not life what I and what she has imagined the same? A life with someone who can respect each other and negotiate freedoms? I'm simply not used to it and maybe I'm afraid of thinking aboout the time to come. Will I be able to accommodate the change in my accustomed rhythm in life? But destiny has it's own way of deciding the things for us. I have to go by it...I guess I hoped a favorable life partner like ???, which no young woman is and I failed to envision her thoughts. Thoughts which was about individuality and freedom. I became the baddie in love; I became half sick. And decided never to love and trust a female soul. But I was not successful in my thoughts! I cannot express my feeling in this blog of what I am feeling...

Ohh.. Common.. Every one needs love and marriage...Some go in the direction what his/her soul thinks about and some fellow the societal way. All I think, Marriage and love are just conditions for a legal societal based living together, to have sex and making legitimate generation for future. Every body know this.. we are ourselves just trying to prove ourselves in this world and trying to gain acceptance.

It's just meaningless in expecting anyone to be your kind because you can't hold their right hand in your right hand to walk together.

Love each other without expecting anything in return. Love each other to prove nothing.

Cheers :)

There’s been nothing really worthwhile written on this blog

There’s been nothing really worthwhile written on this blog.. For now only a place-holder for pains and feelings that was felt and relived a million fold.

Just remember me when I am gone, not for the illusion I had caused in her life, not for the person who could not be, the way

I wanted her to be. But for someone, who truly loved once and that was for ever. For someone, I could not see her around,

hear her around. Those were the perfect days, when she could just spend the whole day just by talking to me.. waiting for my

call or I was waiting for her call. Every minuts were like days.

Remember me for not what I could be, remember me for the fights that made you hate me every while. Remember me like some one

who could go to any extreme if you could have find in the end. I could fight with anyone if you could just chose to be my

friend, broken amends. Look for me when I am gone, for you would miss me, the sound of two syllables, that meant the life to

be. And I will wait for you, till you could remember me for what I could not hold and what I ended up in shreds.

I am sorry. This is all come from my mind....

That was the Perfect Love, a Perfect Life

It's a place where I record all moments of truth that made me fell happy? Or is it to be a sad ones- where I put down those really unhappy times? Or shall I just flow with the time and make a note of whatever happens?

who knows..you never know what life has to bring.

When my eyes meet with someone very close to heart in a crowd of over a hundred people...all the reminiscences of the past became as fresh as they were some months or days back stories. It happens by chance that I never thought of it... to be honest I never thought I’d ever get a chance to see her after all that had happened days back. Thanks to the almighty that made this happen. I came across a very familiar face, those unforgettable eyes, that attractive hair, that radiance on the face, the unchanged amiable smile. Yes she was just the same as she was few years back. If anything changed at all was her prefix from Ms. to Mrs.??? To be honest, sadly, now it’s the worst of times.

That was the Perfect Love, a Perfect Life. And now its Over.

The flash back was a sweet pain and I was completely involved in it. I got up, and realized my present, resumed my senses and just wished for all the happiness for her. I had never thought that we would meet, but yes it was surely a pleasant surprise to see her there. I have never looked back..for my own good..leaving all the memories of her in the same thoughts. But one thing I would surely say “it was a pure love which would never fade away”. Love is…letting her go without any feeling in ur heart..for her own good.

I did today - and let me tell you, I wasn’t happy at all meeting her. But perhaps I should start at the beginning.

Just in middle of this thought..one question came to my mind, What is Love???

One falls in one with someone… and after sometime the same person claims to be off that relationship and says I don’t love that person anymore… In such cases, what really changes? Is it that other person who changes? Is it the definition of love that changes? Or Is it you who changed??????This is a question everyone would have asked and answered a no of times till date… but still…does anyone really know? I don’t… not completely know at least!

Cheers!!!

Life around me evolves as a script...

Ahh… loads of stuffs to write and a much more to express !!!Lot of things are striking to my mind...I’m unable to decide what to write first and what next ! Don't know from where I should start???
I just came across this exciting thought. I am composing this post with some random thoughts....Can someone call it to be fishy...
There is a set of laws that govern our state of mind...I have seen several transformations in my life. Few of them have been quite remarkable! I feel as if I have transformed from a rigid, foresighted chap to an illusionist! Plans seems to be passive, life seems to have become dormant. What happens is not what I plan up for and the outlines I speculate actually takes the back seat! Then, there have been certain aspects of life I have been thinking about. But until today, not a single task has been accomplished. I am unable to decide if quiting somethings and some people out of my life would actually help me in one or more ways. May be I am reluctant to take that Or whatever it is, its painful.
I admire things a lot... I am not too keen to write but with the kind of lifestyle I’ve been following for the past few months, I suppose, I’m in a right position to describe what we do all day long; more precisely, how do we get along with it when we are in ????kind of situation(u are guessing the right situation of life)...
Life around me evolves as a script...I am! I may not be very happy saying this but I’m not regretting either. Past few days have seen me struggling to stay away from the sentimental thoughts of life...Well these sentiments have been taking my time....I am not sure how many would be in the same state as I ?!?

Chinni...